Here I am sitting in the De Anza library TRYING to study. I have a test in Macroeconomics this upcoming Tuesday and I should be studying. But yet, I'm not. A small part of me really knows and wants to study at this very moment. But most of my whole being longs for one thing right now. I simply and seriously cannot stop thinking about Jesus.
So many thoughts keep entering my mind. Wondering more about who God is. Longing to be alone with Him right now. Determined to love Him the best that I can. Determined to do what He has asked & called me to do. Wondering more about what the vision He has for me. Longing for Him to continually mold & shape me into the lover of His He wants me to be. Wondering how much He loves me, even though my mind will never fully understand the depth of His love for me. Even though there are times where I feel unworthy of His love, He chooses to keep loving me anyway. I'm so grateful for Him and His love. No thing and no one can ever compare to my First Love.
Random thoughts? No.
But these are merely the thoughts of my heart.
I honestly don't know where I'm going with all of this, but I'll end with one last thing.
"Vision gives pain a purpose."
- Kris Vallotton
